Getting to know Todd

So I'll start this blog where the previous post ended...

Anyway... me and Todd were talking again, virtually everyday, he was the only reason I went online! Lol! He eventually asked for my phone number... so I gave it him, and then the online chats quickly spilled over to text messages! I'm on a phone contract and I had gone over the number of texts I was allowed to type... by like loads... my bill was HUGE! But it was all worth it, I was getting to know him and I was happy we were talking again.

Todd then finally admitted that he liked me, I remember being sat at home receiving a text from him saying "I fancy you shhh" which made me jump around the room in happiness! I wanted to tell him SO badly that I liked him back... but obviously I was still "straight" so I couldn't express my feelings, which was eating me up inside really.

In rehearsals, we began talking again. He told me online that he was going to "poke" me in person as opposed to on facebook, so as soon as I walked in the rehearsal room he poked me... which made me blush uncontrollably and I didn't know what to do at all! I remember waffling something to him and then running out of the room! Haha! Pathetic really but I was embarassed I guess!

He then invited me to go out with him to the theatre society's christmas party. I was hesitant at first and didn't know if I should, however after thinking about it a lot I decided I would go. He would let me stay at his house since I lived at home for Uni and therefore didn't have a place to stay. Anyway, after classes at Uni he met me and walked me back to his house. I was so excited to be with him. That night we went out and danced till the early hours before getting a taxi home, however instead of it being just me he brought back, he also invited our friend Louise to stay with us... which at the time disappointed me because I wanted it to be just us two, but in hindsight I know he did it to make me feel more comfortable and so that people didn't get the wrong impression about our friendship. That night, whilst Louise had gone to the bathroom to get ready for bed, Todd kissed me... only briefly but it was a kiss and it made me want to SCREAM with happiness! However immediately after the kiss Louise walked in so we had to pretend that nothing had happened. I pretended to have no recolection of that kiss from then on... although in reality I was buzzing because of it! We 3 then shared the bed and slept. Partway through the night Todd grabbed my arm and put it around him so we were spooning. I didn't get a wink of sleep that night but I couldn't stop smiling =)

A few days later we decided to go out to pizza hut for lunch one day inbetween rehearsals! It was just the two of us and I was so nervous, I had never been with him for such a long period of time... and it being just "us". I was constantly thinking of things to say to him, but luckily he brought up the fact that he had worked in Disney World in Florida the previous summer, so he told me lots about that and the conversation kept going (although little did I know that in a years time that same topic would cause me so much sadness!).

After the meal we walked back to Uni and went our seperate ways for rehearsals. I text him a few minutes later just sending "^_^", to which he replied "what does that mean?", and I just said that I had enjoyed our lunch. I was so happy, and I liked him so much, but I couldnt tell him.

I'll continue in my next blog =)